Tamam umr ka hisaab maangti hai zindagi...

Such songs must be censored. Why think so much when you can live in peace w/o such disturbance?

5 things I wish I could bring into my life:

1. Sleep on time. I think in the past 10 years, I haven't slept once before 12.
2. Not trust everyone. I still take words at face value. Stab me and I would think you must've been aiming for something else.
3. Eat out less often. Bad habits die hard and this one has been around since college days when I lived on Jimmy John's #6 (they deliver at 4 too).
4. Love kids less. I want to kidnap every cute kid around(skip the entire baby making process and get a few of my choice and liking).
5. Get real! I live in a world of my own making. This doesn't help when you are holding on a job, running a house, dealing with relatives and making 'practical' decisions.

Amused

I am often amazed at how little I knew myself and the world around me before. There is a change these days in how I take things - I no longer feel confused like before when something unexpected happens. I am amused. I find myself looking at things curiously and find myself smiling, even if it happens to be a painful experience. The fact that I am able to look at the naked truth, painful/joyous as it may be, gives me peace. I am often amused at the things people discuss or choose to talk about(how very predictable), at the way I react during these conversations(such a fake, learned response), at the way I judge them later(how futile it is to try and remain non-judgmental), at the way I feel guilty for thinking things I shouldn't(what happened to the good, ol' self-righteous me?!) and at the way I decide to not take it too personally (oh come on! you are just human!).

The point? - getting to know yourself is really a funny thing. You understand and accept your shallowness with abandon. You would still pass judgement at others, but you will be able to accept them whole heartedly too 'coz somewhere you understand them just as do yourself. With all the glory that is you, you also see all the dirt that is you. An acceptance of one's self is humbling, disturbing, embarrassing, disgusting and relieving.