Darkness Inside...

I fear

The fall that is yet to come

I am afraid

Of the success that I dream about

I imagine

The enemies I didn’t make

I run away

From a beckoning love.

I shy away

From a life that is normal

I push away

my dear ones

I can not let go

Of the past or the pain

I wonder

If life is in fact, in vain.

I cry

When I got no reason to

I hide

When no one comes looking

I pretend

When there isn’t a need

I shiver

And the chill hasn’t begun.

I am tired

Oh I am so tired

Of these wasted breaths I take

Of the demons that are my own pet

Of the life that could’ve been but would never be

Of every moment that passes by unlived.